Do you ever have moments of feeling overwhelmed with gratitude? I do, and I seem to have those moments when I need them most, when I do have much to be thankful for, but also stuff "hanging" over our heads, unsettled. However, we are so blessed in many ways- we have a (generally) happy little family, my dh has a good job (long prayed-for here in NC), he is FINALLY over his pneumonia, we are living in a home that is more than adequate for our needs, and I'm finally starting to make some friends and feel a bit more "settled" here. Our extended family is here- I'm delighted when I receieve a last-minute phone call that my brother and SIL are in the area and we can have them over for dinner. I'm happy that after a mere 3 hour drive (as opposed to 12-13 hours) we find ourselves at my IL's front door. I'm getting used to my dad popping in unexpectedly to pick up his mail (he still hasn't changed his address officially, I think it's an excuse to drop by and visit.)
I feel that all of us here in America are so blessed in so many ways, yet of course there are people who are truly struggling and needy here. And there is often negative news coming out about possible recessions and downturns. I was complaining about the "panic" to dh last night who said, "Well, if people lose their jobs, they are going to panic. How would you feel if I suddenly lost my job?" Well, I would panic, of course! It would be very scary, and I really pray it doesn't happen in a widespread way. However, I don't know if a little bit of economic down-turn or slow-down is really a terrible thing... to be honest, it seems like it's a natural thing. I know it's hard for me to always surge forward and "improve" constantly. We are all human, in a human system.
I'm also not really sure what the Christian response to all this is... about the best I can figure out right now is to try to maintain a focus of thankfulness, for God's general work in the world and in my life, and for answers to specific prayers. Maybe I'm sticking my head in the sand a bit, but for my own sanity I can't let myself dwell on the negativity "out there." That's harmful to my family, and counterproductive to my goals as a wife and mother.
Say to those who have an anxious heart,
'Be strong; fear not!
Behold, your God will come with vengeance,
with the recompense of God.
He will come and save you."
And the familiar Sermon on the Mount...
Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?
Other things I'm thankful for... Fridays, 3 day weekends, 1 year old snuggles and 4 year old songs about loving others, messes to clean up because friends were over and we had FUN, yummy new soup recipes, my coffee maker, how comfortable and family my bed is, a garage (which is also shelter to a bird at night), a yard full of trees, a quiet street to live on, museums and libraries to visit, numerous books to read, fun hobbies like digital scrapbooking and knitting, and online friends and messageboards where I can go "beyond" my home and connect with others.
I don't usually do these sorts of pages, but I was pleased with how this one turned out...Layout Credits here...